I have a sick feeling that the reports from TMZ and other sources that Michael Jackson has died in LA.  The reports are that he had quit breathing.  The Perez Hilton site is down today probably due to a surge in traffic that the web host could not hold up.  Our thoughts today are with Michael Jackson and his family and we hope he recovers and is ok.  He has a Summer and Fall tour planned for London this year and he has been rehearsing for this tour.

Steve Ruda told the newspaper Thursday that Jackson was not breathing when Los Angeles Fire Department paramedics responded to a call at his Los Angeles home about 12:30 p.m.

The paramedics performed CPR and took him to UCLA Medical Center, told the paper.

If you were like me you were glued to the TV like it was an American Idol Finale every night when this sitcom came on LOGO.  This was to see what these Texas country gals do next whether they shoot out of their trailers, protest a bar being open with religious signs, or eat lots of valium.  This show reminded me of many people who I have known in my life from small town America it shows your religious nuts, loving mothers, prescription drug-addictive temptations, and affairs. Most of all it was beginning to close out the season on Jason Dottley known as Ty at his mothers door just after she had flushed some valiums down the toilet.

Sordid Lives the TV show had the hottest of guys being Jason and his singing men chorus auditions when it broke to the Hollywood scene he was engaged in but then went back to Texas life to show his family and friends there.  Oh, and there is Leslie Jordon who plays Loretta Lynn or Brother Boy as they called him… the guy from Will and Grace.

The other great characters were Noleta Nethercott, Peggy Ingram (Rue McClanahan, Golden Girls), and I think my favorite was Beth Grant or Sissy Hickey.  I just loved Sissy’s bee-hive-ish hair.  But there was also the singing delight Bitsy Mae who we all know as Olivia Newton-John.  And we cannot forgot LaVonda and then there is Dr. Eve the doc trying to change the Sexual Preferences of Brother Boy.

So this about shows you a sum of some of the big name stars in this show not including the terriffic Del Shores who put all of this together.  But what is the catch? LOGO is claiming they will not bring back the show because of its costs blamed on the bad economy.  It may be too late to save the show from LOGO  carrying it but we could try.  There is currently a petition going on over at the petition site and a facebook page setup to save the show.

Here are some other options:
Email LOGO directly at- www.logoonline.com/about/contact.jhtml

Oh and while you are at it let’s make a petition for someone to bring back Queer As Folk.  That is my all time favorite show and I think its high time to have a revamped QAF every sunday night.  Both shows need to come back but Sordid Lives can be easier to bring back since its on a roll right now as a popular show and just need some action from us all.

The whole thing with Perez Hilton and Will.I.Am is such a mess and makes us all look horrible.  A little drama here and there is expected when you have big egos getting together whether it be inside a Church, Nightclub, business meeting, or a power struggle.  At first I saw Perez Hilton’s twitter and was on his side but then I started looking more into and thought why did he call someone a “faggot”.  It is unacceptable to use the f-word no matter how drunk you are when you are in public (or even private these days with video around) when you are fighting for gay rights.  It is as bad as the N word to the gay community and should not be used.

Del Shores the writer of Sordid Lives wrote on his facebook demanding that GLAAD take action and they finally did.  It is a sad situation when the gay community has to face off against each other because we are supposed to be a fabulous loving family.  Perez Hilton should apoligize to the entire gay community for his actions even though he was assulted.  The assult and violence brought on from Will.I.Am and Fergie’s band manager should be punished as well.  Violence is never the answer but words such as F-words should not be used either.

The TMZ video of this made my stomach hurt and I was shaking in disapointment that someone in our community would embarass us like this.  It is hard to stand by him but I think he will in time apoligize and clean things up… we should give him a chance to do better and all quit hating each other.  Hate and violence are what the religoius extremists do to each other and we certainly do not want to be one of those losers.

Del Shores (whom is also married to actor Jason Dottley) has also been commenting about the Dustin Lance Black pictures that were posted on Perez Hilton’s site and how that hurt the gay community.  Keep in mind this was only a week or so ago so there is even more bitterness towards Perez.  Although I will have to give Hilton credit that he took down the nude pics of Dustin Lance Black of Milk.

On a better note, Lady Gaga was amazing and sexy as can be gyrating like a hot stripper at the Much Music Awards.  Whether she is a man or a woman she is the hottest thing on the planet.  Her flaming boobs made Britney and the MTV Awards look like a Disney reject movie.  We love you Gaga and can’t wait to see what you do next.

Breaking from Perez Hilton’s celebrity site today are some highly steamy photos of Dustin Lance Black who were sold to the media.  It is sad that you cannot make a home video with your partner without having to worry about the media getting a hold of it and everyone starring at your private parts online.  But move over the Portland Mayor and his teenage boytoy Beau Breedlove - we now have a new scandal (that shouldn’t be a scandal).   Not that the Mayor of Portland dating a 18yr old adult should have been either.

I see if this “explodes” into something big it will be because people are jealous that the Oscar winning Milk writer is so hot in this video.  Hotter than most of the stars that are really supposed to be doing these types of videos.  I admit i will be the first to buy this video!

Of course we all know Dustin lance is gay but did we know he had sex too?  OMG really? haha.  People goto the bathroom as well.  This whole thing could end up being as silly as Adam Lambert coming out as Gay.   I just wonder how these things get “leaked” out or does Dustin Lance want us to know how big his pee pee is… Photo courtesy of Perez Hilton.com.

I could have just avoided the final moments of hearing who won American Idol this year.  The performance from Adam Lambert and Kris Allen to the Queen We are the Champions was just amazing.  I had to watch it over about 20 times it was so good.  They looked into each others eyes almost like they were in love.  It was like the Brokeback Mountain meets American Idol.  It was breathtaking.  Then in the end they got broke up with a sad ending where the gay did not win but maybe we did afterall…because WE are the Champions.  The lead singer of Queen who died of HIV/AIDS and the powerful song was symbolic of our struggle and I feel the show was more about how far Adam Lambert came.

I’m not a big Amerian Idol fan.  I only watched this season for Kris Allen and Adam Lambert and I liked the chick with the tattoos and Matt Giraud.  This season was by far the best season ever of Idol.  But it really was Adam Lambert who made American Idol exciting this year it would have been a boring show without him.  Danny Pokey Gokey was nothing more than a Karoke cruise ship singer who seemed like a nice guy but him and some of the others really had no business being in the top 10.

America eagerly awaited for Adam Lambert’s next creative showing each week which normally outdid the others and outdid himself.  It was the growing talent he had which we all desire on one of these reality shows and we all knew in our hearts he should have won but had that dark feeling that he probably will not win because most of America is still too set in their ways.  It came down to what Suze Orman predicted on twitter:  Suze Orman tweeted that Kris Allen would get Danny Gokeys votes and Adam will lose.  She was right.  Although what is a finance lady doing talking about American Idol– haha no wonder were in a recession lol.  OK, love you Suze.  And by the way Suze was for Adam.

Not only was the gay communities biggest hero Suze Orman for Adam but Katy Perry went out of her way to show her support.  Katy Perry came on Idol and flashed an Elvis outfit with Adam Lambert embrodered on the back.   Katy was performing her new Vegas song which will be a big hit in gay clubs this Summer I can assure you that!  Such good timing since Vegas pride is going on while she rolls out her Vegas song!

Simon was also behind Adam to win Idol.   He did not look too happy when the winner was announced.  Maybe it was the vote against gays or the momentum the religious right has built up from Miss California’s hate against us.  Maybe it was just the fact that Kris Allen is cute as a button and acted so gay friendly that gays even voted for him.  In the end, Adam had the better voice and could out sing Kris but they were really two different types of performers.  So the right thing to do should have been for Kris to say hey this is a tie. I am giving my award to both of us.

The gays already lost with Clay Aiken losing to Ruben Studdard.   There is no way in hell Ruben was better than Clay Aiken at that point anyway.  Clay Aiken was clean cut though and never had the creative energy we see with Adam Lambert.

It is no surprise that a gay got that far in any competition.  I mean if you really think Benji from So You Think You Can Dance is straight or Travis for that matter then think again. Look at most of Hollywood and you will see lots of gays in the closet.  The sad thing is that they want us to put on an act for them 100% of the time and live our lives for them.  If gay marriage does become legal I will not be living my life for the religious right people to live how they think I should live.  I will still be my creative, innovative, ambitious, fun, passionate self and I hope everyone else does too.  So don’t go closing down the nightclubs I will be out to dance!

As for the rest of the Idol show it was mostly great.  Rod Stewart scared me a few times I thought he was going to fall over with his drunken walk.  What was the deal with Fergie and the black eyed peas they seemed to cut away from that performance with the Idol logo and some type of time delay as if something was said after she sung the word “staggered”.  Was she predicting Rod Stewart staggering around?  The time delay part was strange or it was a major technical error.

It was great to see Cyndi lauper perform although I would have loved to her one of her newer songs that were big hits in our community last year.  My top moments of the night were Adam Lambert singing with KISS, Queen performance with Kris and Adam, and Kara DioGuardi singing to Mariah and bearing some skin for us.

Kara DioGuardi was the sexiest thing on the stage last night.  It was hot to see her show some skin and that black bikini thong.  You go girl!  I earned lots of respect for Kara with that performance.

Adam should have won but he will most likely sell more records than Kris Allen anyway.  Someone like Adam Lambert probably does not want the American Idol contract… he probably wants to do his own thing anyway which is why he was pleased from the results on his facial expressions.  He was probably thinking “thank God!”  Kelly Clarksen has been trying to change her image from the Idol winner for years.

They plan to go on tour this fall but I will just wait for Adam Lambert’s tour in a few years when its not the rest of them.  Until then it’s Green Day, No Doubt, and Beyonce on tour!  If you live in Europe you can even catch Madonna.

Another year at the White House Correspondents dinner for Journalists and another controversial edgy comedian takes the podium. Last year the right was in an uproar over Steven Colbert who took some deep jabs at President Bush (who everyone seemed to forget about this year).

Now all the talking heads on TV are going after Wanda Sykes head.  But not her liver I don’t guess.  Why is it that no one is realizing she is a comedian.  She is not stooping down to Rush Limbaugh’s level because he is NOT a comedian as funny and entertaining as he may seem to some wackos.  Rush Limbaugh is a talking head slash pundit or political commentator or talk show host who should be held up the standards that everyone is holding Wanda Sykes up to.  Why is it that Wanda says something everyone goes bananas and Rush says something no one fears.

I don’t think people should be wishing someone ill health.. death.. or pain of any kind.   I think the context and the joking manner was different than someone like Bill O’Reilly or a non-comedian saying it.  The View commented on Wanda and even Whoppi said “it wasn’t funny”.  But what about the entire speech?  I mean seriously.  If no one laughed as they say during that part of the speech they sure loved all of it before that and after that from what I saw.  It’s funny on some shows the Miss California speech had boos and others had claps as if they edited the sound to make it look on some shows that Miss. California had supporters.  Perez Hilton says there were more people booing in the audience though.  Which makes me skeptical of any kind of sounds in the background unless you are actually there in person.

Let’s not forget how great the speech was. I thoroughly enjoyed it and had to watch it several times as it was very entertaining. If you have not watched the entire video (parts 1 and 2) make sure you do because what the media shows are just small cuts.

Wanda Sykes goes on tour this Summer as part of the True Colors comedy leg. Wanda recently came out (again) for gay rights because of Proposition 8 in California and has since been a strong advocate and help to gay rights.

Congrat’s on your new born baby
In other big news today Wanda Sykes’ wife gave birth to twins Daughter Olivia Lou and Son Lucas Claude.

The front page of AOL news today linked off to some blog that asked if America would vote for a gay American Idol.  They even featured a poll asking if people would vote for a gay American Idol and a poll asking if Adam Lambert is gay.  Seriously?  They act as if their has never been a gay idol before.  And I do not mean from the TV show American Idol.  We all know Clay Aiken and others almost made it to the Idol.  I doubt Ruben Studdard won because Clay was gay acting it was more likely the psychology of people thinking others were calling in for Clay so they did not bother… but who knows.

And as for gay idols there have been many in America.  Come to think of it when you think of music and acting almost the higher percentage is gay.  So why are the talking heads like Bill O’Reilly blubbering that its shocking that Adam Lambert could be gay.  Big deal he had some pics online of him making out with other guys on Myspace or some social network.  Who cares? I never knew there was a law against making out.

The media is so set on shocking people and trying out out people.  We should be focused on the quality of the talent and not the reputation from the media.  Of course what else will people like Bill O’Reilly do for his ratings if he can’t diss on gays or MSNBC.

Adam Lambert’s Myspace is private so you can’t peek inside unless he adds you as a friend and it seems he has not even signed in since February.  His being gay is no ones business but some of us gays want to know because it does mention single on his profile :).

Adam is the best thing that has happened to American Idol in a long time.  I Tivo the show each night and would be highly disappointed if he got voted off somehow.  He brings talent to the show of someone with creativity we do not see often and he is 27 years old.  Not only would it be nice for a gay person to win assuming hes gay but it would be nice for someone in their higher age group to win.

His favorite artists include Lady Gaga, Madonna, and Pink.  Three divas that are the best things to happen to music.  When he came on stage to do the Mad World song it was like Elvis had walked on stage.  He is such a great performer and I look forward to next week.

Is Adam Lambert Gay?  Judge for yourself.  Life has mystery for a reason.  It’s shocking to me that people search more about peoples personal lives than their actual talent such as their videos perfoming.

There were thousands of books removed from the sales rankings at Amazon.com mostly due to a new computer program.  Most of the titles seem to be gay and lesbian books such as Heather Has Two Mommies, a book by Ellen Degeneres, The Dictionary of Homophobia, Brokeback Mountain, and many more.  Amazon claims they are not censoring out gay and lesbian books but some have their doubts because they continued to rank the heterosexually-themed books with explicit sexual content including Playboy: The Complete Centerfolds and the graphic novel Lost Girls by Alan Moore.

Has Amazon turned into the new Wal-Mart when it comes to censoring music and books?   Amazon claims this is a computer glitch and all of the books will be re-listed in the top sales rankings.  If we see anything happen like this again we need to investigate the situation more and evaluate if a major boycott of Amazon needs to take place.  Until we find out more on the situation you should get your books from gay friendly bookstores in your local cities.  It is a shame so many historic gay bookstores have went out of business such as the Crossroads in Dallas and the Oscar Wilde Bookshop closed down just last month.  We have got to support our gay neighborhoods and bookstores or they will close down and who will look out for our rights then?

You can still buy most of these books at Amazon.com but the high sales come from them being rated higher.   Publications can rarely survive if they have no rankings.

I found this Craig’s List post amusing today because they were giving up their Marc Jacobs purse for a pair of Britney tickets.  Really?  Really? They may have to give up their purse and a few Ben Franklin’s inside the purse if they wish to score some Britney Spears concert tickets.

Perez Hilton claims her show was all a lip sync but I have heard others say its an awesome show and that most of the seats are good seats because the way the show is setup in the round seating.  Which I normally do not care for Round seating.

If you got some Britney Tickets there is no telling what people are willing to give up to get them.  Just check your local Craigs Listing =)

When I first heard mention of the show called RuPaul’s Drag Race I knew it would be a hit.  RuPaul took so many people away with her video which was played on MTV years ago when being a drag queen or GLBT was just not something you wanted to walk around and be happy about.  We must have progressed quite a bit if we are talking about Gay Marriage in the media now.  I first saw RuPaul on TV with a straight friend of mine and we both thought it was a tall, sexy women.  My mom I think was the one that actually told me that it was a man and I then I kept watching the video and acted like I did not know.  I wanted to keep watching that video over and over and over.  I could not get enough out of RuPaul’s Supermodel (You betta Work).

We have to thank LOGO for bringing us such good shows as the Drag Race although I think everyone was in shock that BeBe won instead of Nina Flowers.  Most of the Myspace bulletions being sent out right now all think that Nina should have won.  I thought she was more fierce than Bebe Zahara Benet who won tonight.  Bebe seemed to look down too much in the background and just did not seem as magical.  I thought her crying was not all that real but maybe it was.. I will have to give her the benefit of the doubt.

I felt so sorry for Rebecca Glasscock she was under so much pressure on the Season Finale.  Having to make up a rap with Cazwell, learning choreagraphy for RuPaul’s new video, and preparing for a fate fullfilled lunch of tic tacs with RuPaul can be pretty stressful but she should have had more fun with it and had less attitude with the judges.  It says on the LOGO site that Rebecca is from Ft. Lauderdale which I frequent quite a bit but have never heard of her.  I would love to check out her show if she performs with Daisy Deadpettles at Voodoo Lounge on Sundays or wherever she does her show.  I am surprised Daisy D was not in the show she could easily be the next Supermodel drag queen.   Rebecca was stunning in drag and cute out of drag but just did not make the cut.

Ongina had the fiercest cat walk out of all of them but she probably did not deserve to get as far as she did.  I like to see some wigs when I watch drag.  Furthermore, I especially loved the episode with the butch boxer/fighter girls being made over.  That was an emotional episode for me.

This reminds me of American Idol in the way that the winner is normally not the person that you really remember.  I bet the people that stick in our heads more will be Rebecca Glasscock and Nina Flowers.  Nina Flowers will be the Clay Aiken of the competition.

Supermodel, You better Work!